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Saturday, March 31, 2007

Yesterday was possibly 1 of the happier days i had this 2 weeks. I found a job at Toyota Borneo Motors as customer service adminstrator at Leng Kee Road.

It's a temp to perm job. Starting off as temp for abt 2 weeks to 1 month & if performance & attitude is good will get convert to perm.

After working for the 1st year will get 2 months bonus. Cool huh? Pretty good opportunity for me as i do own a toyota car as well.

The funny thing is the interview was over the phone as the HR is rather busy with moving office & to save my trip there.

She told my agent that i sounded bubbly & she likes it so i'm starting work on this coming monday. That was fast.

In the end, i had to go all the way down to chinatown to my agent's office to meet her. She's a pretty nice lady. We had a nice long talk.

After the meet up with my agent, i went to People's Park Complex to 1 of the tour agency there to get the itinery of Shanghai & Korea for my mum.

It's been a long time since i walk alone on the streets like this. It was pretty relaxing. I saw a mahjong shop at the complex & was tempted to buy 1 set of mahjong back cause it looks so nice.

Black colour mahjong instead of white & it's those backpack version which you can bring everywhere you go. No more feeling bored when you go overseas & have nothing to do.

They even have the mini table for the mahjongs ok? So cute, so nice & so tempting but it cost 35 bucks just for the mahjong leh. Table don't know how much yet.

But i've got a feeling that i won't bear to open it up & play with it. Still, if i'm rich enough i may get 2 sets. 1 for display purposes.

I think i'm going crazy soon enough to start the hobby of collecting mahjongs. Hahaha! I can be so lame at times i amaze myself.

I'm pretty broke at the moment so i resist the temptation. The owner of the shop kept asking me which 1 i want. So embarassing to say no lor.

I made a promise to myself that once i start work & get my 1st pay cheque, i'll rush there immediately to bring my baby home.

Or is there any kind hearted person out there who wants to buy it for me? Please fulfil a lonely girl's wish before she really die. Can?


If really got a kind samaritan wanna buy for me do email me or leave me a comment ok? We can meet up & i'll bring you to the place to buy.

Don't ask me why i didn't take a photo of it cause the i scared the auntie which is the owner of the shop will scold me. Scared i duplicate another set then she no business liao.

Thursday, March 29, 2007

Yesterday, deardear send me a message saying that his heart is already dead. When i saw that message, i can feel my heart breaking into many pieces.

I talk to a few dear friends abt this & they really made me feel alot better. Thank you guys if you're reading this.

I've decided to stop feeling upset & not cry anymore because my heart too went dead at that moment. I can no longer feel anything. I've lost all my senses.

I guess that's what happen when a person goes past his/her limits. I think deardear felt the same thing too when i broke his heart time & again.

I feel like the most goddamn useless person around. Im a lousy wife who failed her duty as a wife. I hurt my loved ones again & again. Regretting is too late for me now.

I've decided not to be a happy person again. I shall not cause sufferings to others for my own happiness anymore. I hereby announce that i will not be happy again as long as i continue hurting others.

Today, i went for a walk in the park with my mother-in-law & my mum. We walk from Bukit Batok Nature Reserve Park till Bukit Timah Hill. I nvr knew this 2 was connected. Amazing!

It was extremely tiring for me. I really lack of exercise but at least i've not grown any fatter till i become obese or something like that because of that due to good body metabolism. Haha... That's lame.

My mum is far worse than me. The look on her face really makes me want to laugh. I kinda pity her halfway through the journey but i told myself that this is for her own good.

I totally made a mistake putting 2 mothers together. What else can they talk abt? Their favourite subject is just right in front of them.

They talk abt my lifestyle till my working life. Arghhhh! Damn irritating. That's not all. After the walk we went to have breakfast... with my mother-in-law's FRIENDS!

Man... Those aunties... I had to listen to them talk throughout the whole meal though they not talking abt me la.

But, it's like... imagine me, a young lady sitting together with a bunch of aunties at the coffeeshop. Look kinda weird right? I had to listen to them talk & smile at them. I look like a blardy fool.

That's it! No more! I will nvr join them again! Goodness gracious me! Can't imagine if people actually mistaken me as 1 of their kakis! Siao! I will kill myself & die!

Sunday, March 25, 2007

It has been a pretty lousy week for me. On wed, Rachel & Jing Jing came over to my place & we made japanese jellies. It was a failure as the jellies fall apart easily but still edible la.

On thurs, i made egg tarts with my mother-in-law as i had no money to buy present for deardear so i decided to do some of his favourite home made egg tarts.

Soon, fri is here it's deardear's birthday together with my brother's birthday as well. Oh! Not to forget, it's Sherry's birthday too. Haha...

Guess what? My sis pass her driving license on that day too. Worth celebrating & therefore my mum treated us to dim sum at Fortunate Restaurant at Toa Payoh.

All was fine all the while until at night, we went to KTV to celebrate deardear's birthday. Jackson came along too. We had a quarrel there again.

It was suppose to be a joyous occasion but he had to show me an unhappy face. I got myself drunk that night. Had a terrible morning the next day. Was vomitting like shit!

I think i hurt my stomach in the process of vomitting. Deardear was totally unconcerned about me which made me feel even worse.

He even wanted to catch a movie despite i was feeling unwell & blamed me when i couldn't get up in time for the movie. I couldn't stop crying. Thoughts of suicide came to my mind again.

That night, he went out with Wilson & Meng Meng. I fell sick with fever & headache due to excess vomitting. I called & told him but all he was concerned abt is having a good time with them.

I already tried my best to be nice & not to hurt him again but he does not seem moved by it. I told him how i felt & he said to talk to me after his confinement week. I hope we can really talk things out. I do not want to drag it any further.

All alone at home now. My mum & the whole family went to catch a horror movie without me. Feeling pretty depressed. I still have to help my mum make egg tarts tonight as it's her last day at work tomorrow.

Today, deardear talk a little nicer to me. I don't know to feel happy or what. Still depressed. I think i better go play some game.

Thanks to those who are so concerned abt me. I'll be fine. Do not worry. I'll keep things updated. Hope there'll be good news soon.

Sunday, March 18, 2007

Recently, i've been so obsessed & preoccupied with my online game to distract myself from all the unhappiness that has been going thru in my life that i totally forgot to blog.

I don't have much readers anyway so i guess that's ok. Yesterday was a pretty much slightly happier day for me.

I met up with Rachel & Jing Jing to go Suntec's food fair together with my mum, Gracie & Khai. In the food fair, of cause there's food la.

Not that all the food are nice la but still ok lor. We still manage to have a very full meal there. Since it's free admission so i suggest people who have nothing better to do go take a look.

Nothing much. Just wanna show everyone what a nice cut i have on my hand. Pretty isn't it?

Nothing much to blog abt also so i shall just sign off from here. Take care everybody.

Tuesday, March 13, 2007

There comes a time when i feel that my husband no longer loves me. Yes. Pretty ironic huh? In just a few short weeks, his love for me starts to falter.

I don't really know what went wrong. I only know i feel pain in my heart. I feel so miserable when he doesn't care abt me. It's like history repeating itself.

Maybe he can't stand my temper but why must he do this to me? This is the 2nd time something like this happens. I have not stop crying since the day he treated me like this.

I tried my best to talk to him nicely to settle whatever problems we have but he just simply cannot be bothered. He kept avoiding my questions. Kept saying he need time to think. I don't know what he has to think abt.

His confinement week is coming. I won't be able to see him for 2 weeks. What is going to happen if he doesn't settle our problem before the end of this week?

I can't stand it! I'm going crazy soon. Why is he torturing me like this? Thoughts of suicide came to my mind. I almost did it last night. I took a knife & started cutting myself.

I wanted to end my life rather than being in a unhappy marriage. I no longer feel happy. I no longer feel that i'm the most xin fu girl ard. There is nothing left in my life worth waiting for.

I started to slice my hand but the knife was too blunt. I tried to slice harder but when i felt the pain seeping through my body, i dropped the knife. I do not have to courage to die but yet, i do not want to continue living in misery.

What must i do to end all this misery? I had enough & i do not want to go through all this shit over & over again. I hate my life! I hate my pathetic life!

Sunday, March 11, 2007

Happy Birthday Ling Ling!

Happy *insert age* Birthday My Dear Ling Ling

Happy Birthday to you,

Happy Birthday to you,

Happy Birthday to my dear ah ling,

Happy Birthday to you!

The birthday girl is the 1 in black. She very cute hor?

She will kill me if she see this but it's ok. She stay very far from me. Hahaha...

Thursday, March 8, 2007

I finally decided to stop slacking ard & start updating my blog. Sorry for procrastinating for so long. Once i start lazing ard i nvr stop. How pathetic. Below are the photos i kept saying i wanted to upload, so i shall get it over & done with.


Me & my xin gan baobei!

My handsome daddy!

Me & my beautiful cousin Meiyi!

Meiyi's husband & me!

Me & Gracie!

My cousin Guo Rong & me!

Me & my cousin Hsien Chieh!

He say his head look very big not nice so we re-took.

Handsome hor? No gf leh? Those interested let me know. Mai siao siao! People is big doctor ok?

Me & my other xin gan bao bei!

My God! I just can't stop falling in love with this 2. They are so adorable. Their chi new year clothes more fucking expensive than how much i spend in 1 week ok? Branded!

Lion head! At papa's boss house. Damn big his house! Ang pow also big!

Not 1 is handsome. Phui! Where did all the past handsome ah beng go? Become priest izzit?

Papa's boss with Cai Shen Ye!

My handsome cousin Ah ho & me!

This guy just cannot take a pic properly. Spoil his own good looks. Also no gf. Interested let me know ar.

My beautiful nails done for my wedding. Cost me a freaking $62. But nice la. Worth it!

I've got a new earring. The top 1. Pierce it while deardear's not ard. Haha!

Mummy doing pedicure for me just for my wedding. The end result sucks! But super nan de for her to do something like that for me. Getting married rules! Heh heh heh!

Random pic: Nothing much. Just wanna hao lian what a big ass tv my father bought. But not for me lor. Phui! I must hui niang jia then can watch. Kanasai! I got money i buy those hang at the wall de ar!!!

Daddy says i look like a doll. Kakaka...

Beautiful me!

I'm so tired! But i look pretty cute hor? Who dare say no?

I start thinking i really look like a doll.

My make up artist & me! She's damn good!

My brother, me & my sis the bridesmaid of the day!

Me & Wilson!
Ban lang, Xin Lang, Xin niang & ban niang!
A new haircut the next day right after the wedding. Look so gong!

Me & daddy at the airport!
3 musketeers! Those 2 at the side really like to act sia. Machaim they bodyguard like that.
Very blur but that's daddy in the boarding area.

Bye bye my dearies! See ya all on May!

Sob sob.. There goes daddy back to Indonesia. Really gonna miss him. Bahhhh!!! I wish he would just stay in Singapore.

Alright! Blogger had to hang twice while i was uploading all the photos. I did not had time to save. What the FUCK is going on man? I guess that's my retribution for procrastinating too long. It's early in the morning & i'm sick but i made my promise in posting the photos & so i did.

You people better appreciate all the photos. I went thru alot of trouble just to upload it. That's why i say uploading photos is a hassle. From now on, i will not upload photos unneccessarily.

I do write pretty funny entries you know? Can appreciate what i write anot? Kao!

Saturday, March 3, 2007

Before i forget, remember Sherry? She's not leaving loh. A manager decided to keep her in the company to help him. That's good i guess. I'm happy for her. Instead, i'm the 1 leaving the company.

Shocking, isn't it?

The BIG BALDING BOSS gave me a pretty ridiculous reason. He told my manager that he don't like to see me mixing ard with the production people.


I thought HR are suppose to be in good terms with the workers? So what's wrong with me being nice & friendly to them? Don't i have the right to make friends? To think that he got the cheek to say that everyone is family here.

I think he has a load of bullshit. People with no hair can't think properly. Many people are surprised & shocked with my sudden decision to leave the company. Nobody believes that i'm really leaving the company.

My manager hs been nice to me. She's pretty reluctant to let me go but too bad the final decision is not up to her. I really appreciate her effort to keep me. Almost everyone in the company is pretty pissed off with him for making up this ridiculous fucked up reason.

Since it's always been a trademark & custom for me to curse every boss that treats me like shit & doesn't appreciate their workers, i hereby curse the BIG BOSS that may he bald till his skin starts peeling off. Muahahahaa...

Lucky for me, Andrew wanted to help him on a part time basis so everything is not that bad huh? I can work with my sister too because i recommended her to be Andrew's PA.

My father's leaving soon so have been quite busy this few days. Had steamboat this afternoon & now i'm at deardear's friend, Ming Cong's house warming. So ya, i'm using his com & i'm leaving soon.

Pardon me for not updating regularly. Will be uploading the photos within this 2 days. In the meantime, do miss me =) & take care everybody!
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