Showing posts from October, 2007


Apart from my cousin's wedding last saturday, handing in my resignation letter on monday, seeing William So live this friday & going to my other cousin's house warming yesterday, this week has been a rather shitty week for me.

Things happen & make me really unhappy. Don't wanna say abt it anymore. Too tired of everything that has been going on non-stop since i was young.

Let's talk abt more happy things. 1st up is my cousin's wedding. I never thought i would see her get married. I'm not trying to be mean but since young, i've been wondering when she'll actually get married.

She's much older than me but i have never seen her have a boyfriend until recent years. She finally found her happiness. I'm happy for her.

No photos because my stupid Nokia 7390 broke down on me once again. Need to get a new phone. Anybody have any good recommendation? Let me know please.

I finally hand in my letter & ask for early release. Really can't stand work…


Feel so cheated by the company i'm working for now. It was suppose to be data entry because that is what they told me.

Who ever heard of accounts dept hiring data entry? I'm more like an accounts assistant now & they are only paying me a measly 1000 bucks.

How freaking pathetic is that? I feel so fucking cheated lor.

Initially, i thought to myself say nevermind la. Got work better than nothing. Try 1st & see how lor but who knows their expectations getting higher & higher everyday. Want do appraisal on my performance some more.

For christ sake! I'm only a temp staff there & they don't exactly pay me alot. Why must yao qiu duo duo? Too much lor.

It's like in a market. Buy fish bargain half price liao still extra half kilo of prawns free. Tai guo fen le!

Want tender resignation letter but no chance as i haven't been to work for the past few days. Got a very bad sunburnt back.

Can't sleep on any position i like. Skin gets irritated easily so i can'…


You know how sickening it is when everything you do seems to be wrong? Nothing is right. Everybody just pushes the bloody blame to you.

What the hell is wrong? What did i do to deserve this kinda treatment from others? Just because you are angry doesn't mean you can anyhow scold people right?

Really feel very depressed. I nvr like to quarrel with good friends & family members but why is it when i'm kind to them, they take me for granted?

I really don't understand the human world anymore. Mayb i come from another planet that makes me vulnerable to the humans on earth.

Mayb i shouldn't be here at all or mayb i should leave the family which i thought i belong to.

Mayb i should just fucking die! Die! Die!Die!

Sorry for the gibberish. I'm just too damn depressed at the moment. Goodbye my dear friends...
Sometimes i wish i never had so much hatred in me & that i'm not such a evil & mean person. Hatred makes me miserable. I never like to bear hatred against others. I always forgive & forget.

So why is it that i still bear some hatred towards certain people?

I may say things that hurt people & especially people i don't like but still i have friends who like me. They feel that i'm straight forward which i am.

I don't feel the need to hide anything. I may have offended some people in the process & so be it. Rather than i hide the truth & make myself miserable.

That's how i am. People who can accept it are my true friends. Only true friends tell the truth. I hate to hide things. I don't like secrets & i absolutely hate people lying to me.

Lie straight in my face some more. Treat me like idiot or what? I'm no idiot & i'm not stupid. I can always tell. Nothing lies hidden away from me.

I’m always fair to all my friends. Even if they o…