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Letting go is tough...

Daddy has already gone back and tomorrow is a beginning of my new job and life. I'm feeling nervous. Somehow sadness overwhelms that feeling.

Letting go is a tough and painful process especially your loved ones but in life, we do encounter such setbacks but we just have to learn to let it go.

There is no point in holding back to something which no longer belongs to you. It'll only make you and your life more miserable.

He wants to go, so i give him his freedom. It wasn't easy and it nvr will be. That doesn't mean i love him any lesser.

I will always love him. He will always be in my heart. I just want him to be happy. I just want to see him smile again.

If fate allows and we are meant to, we will be together. I don't wanna think so much anymore. Let him fly and find the happiness that he wants.

I'll give him my blessings when the time comes. I can only pray to God to give me the strength to carry on and peace to be in my heart.

Now i can only focus on myself to become…

Everything will be fine...

Life has not been exactly good for me. I still miss me him alot and the pain in my heart just won't go away.

I've been hurt pretty badly but i'm not complaining because i hurt him 1st and how much i regretted it.

I feel pretty miserable at times and tears just flow from my eyes. People who hate me will be happy to know that.

I'm thankful that a bunch of long lost friends actually called up on me and shower their care and concerns on me.

I also know that God will always be there for me no matter what happens. I pray to him faithfully everyday.

I trust that he will slowly take my pain away and heal my wounds. I will stand up and be strong again.

I've found a job as a Sales and Marketing Coordinator. Starting next tues and dad is coming back tomorrow until mon.

Everything will be fine i believe.

I will take this opportunity to understand myself and where i went wrong. I've learnt to see things in a more open heart.

It might not always be other people's fault. Sometimes…


One night a man had a dream, He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the Lord. Across the sky flashed scenes from his life. For each scene, he noticed two sets of footprints in the sand: one belonging to him, and the other to the Lord.
When the last scene of his life flashed before him, he looked back at the footprints in the sand. He noticed that many times along the path of his life there was only one set of footprints. He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life. This really bothered him and he questioned the Lord about it. "Lord, you said that once I decided to follow you, you'd walk with me all the way. But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life, there is only one set of footprints. I don't understand why when I needed you most you would leave me."
The Lord replied, "My precious child, I love you and I would never leave you. During your times of trial and suffering, when you see only one set of footprints, it was then…

Im free!

Yesterday, i was finally allowed to go back and collect my belongings and paycheck from that stupid place.

Some of my things were missing and my pay kena cut like don't know what and delay my pay somemore but i don't care anymore.

I have no time to argue with small and petty people. Got better things to do than waste my breath on them.

Most importantly is i no longer have anything to do with them and that place anymore. Woohoo! So so so happy la!

Been sick since last thursday till now. Stupid fever, headache, body ache, flu, cough and sore throat. Torture me till now.

Why must i be so so so sick la? Sick until i go interview also scared i faint on the road. Very weak lor. Sianzzz...

Been to many interviews but no results. I will not lose heart because God will open a road for me. Any place beats being in that lousy place agreed?

Btw, whatever happened to all my haters? Disappear from the earth already ar? Kena badly wounded by my army izzit?

Bwahahaah! Serves you people right for curs…
It's been a week since i signed the papers. I won't say i'm very happy but i'm not that sad either.

It's over! I got my freedom back though not exactly what i wanted but God has a plan for me i believe.

What's with all the remarks on the tagboard? Are you guys the dogs of hers too? I am appalled at the amount of dogs she keep.

She doesn't feed you guys so u guys are damn hungry now is it? Anyhow bark. Whatever i've written here is my problem.

Don't get my family involved or the same thing will happen to your families too. I think you guys are simply pathetic.

Why don't you guys go lick somebody's arse since you are so hungry. The person may decide to give you some shit to eat.

It's ok to build your happiness on my misery la. I'm fine with it. Gotten so used to it already. I'm just glad i made some idiots happy. =)

Thanks for building up on my blog traffic. Totally appreciate that. Sorry to say that i'm closing it down soon.

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